Tuesday, November 30, 2004
~si·ne qua non~
There are a lot of things I wish I could let you know.
Can't You hear my vehement cries?
I don't know if you could hear it, but I wish you could.
I'm broken here.
Yeah, I'm so wretched.
I'm so down,
I can't withstand the temptation,
it awakens
my deep desire and lust for mutilation.
I never knew silence..
can be so painful.
almost defeaning
wish you were here.
cease my affliction.
=(
silent_incantations
were spoken at...5:17 PM
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
I've managed to recover my tabulas account I had last summer... There's still nothing much to see. Click
here
silent_incantations
were spoken at...1:00 PM
~Ouch~
It's hard to let go of someone who have touched your life. But it hurts more to say goodbye to someone who was never yours... But changed your life the most... *Tear drop*
silent_incantations
were spoken at...9:56 AM
Monday, November 15, 2004
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silent_incantations
were spoken at...9:53 AM
Sunday, November 14, 2004
Here are some of the poems I've written last July. I think I've posted this here before.. Oh well.. repost, repost repost.. I am damn bored.
Tastes like Tomorrows which may Never Be
Yesterday I lived all unawares in bliss,
and knew it not.
My eyes filled with the glories that were all the tomorrows which might never be.
Drinking down every drop of that joy that becomes yesterday.
Heedless and unknowing I drank from a poisoned spring enraptured by the sweetest taste
(masking death's quiet promise)
,toasting a perilous beauty of so many nights to come.
Who poured you this libation?
Tainted,
it drips from the lips of an angel
(whose wings are black and broken)
and tasting like tomorrows which may never be.
Wretched
I am left here,wary of the night.
Flailing through this hurtful agony.
This life is so severed. *sigh* succumbing this overwhelming compulsion..
I'm reaching out of the darkness in desperation for someone to pull me out of desolation.
Complicated questions take up all the empty space inside me. My mind is clouded by all these emotions making it hard for me to see. *sigh*
The salvation for which HE lust.. flares at once, then dies, crushed by the all-encompassing dark.
silent_incantations
were spoken at...1:49 PM
Friday, November 12, 2004
~Gayuma~
Isip ay tuliro.
Lageng nananabik sayo.
Ano be itong ginawa mo saakin?
Lagi nalang nakatingin sa hangin
Kahit anong paglayo ang gawin ko
Ang tinatahak na daan ay patungo parin sayo
di man nagtatagpo ang landas,
"mahal kita" parin ang mga salitang binibigkas
Kahit sa panaginip ika'y nakikita
Ako yata ay iyong ginayuma
bakit kahit nasasaktan, mahal parin kita?
hayyyy....
silent_incantations
were spoken at...5:54 AM
Thursday, November 11, 2004
Mad.
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silent_incantations
were spoken at...8:34 AM
Friday, November 05, 2004
~The Last Page~
Day by day
We used to write chapters about us
Each day new colors to fill
the blank pages.
And endless words to write about
you and me.
But then.
fate.. ahh yes.. fate
so playful.. so unpredictable.
Casting legion of adversities
upon us.
And "doubt" obliterated all that is left
of the word we once felt and called "love"
We endeavored to amend
what was lost
but only to find ourselves
lost amidst the company of shadows
And so..
We attempted to write again..
hoping to ameliorate the love that was lost
But we realized that
we have tumbled to the last page
Sad.
The last page was written
by only me.
~Dysphoria~
Dysphoria, my shadow..
you sojourned me once again
and perturbed the tranquility
of my once placid realm..
obliterated the serenity of my soul.
I stared at you with bleary eyes
and pleaded not to penetrate
my innocent thoughts.
Yet you did not fathom my words
and start your plot
of enthralling
my bliss.
Guess what? You've succeeded.
silent_incantations
were spoken at...6:32 PM
Here's some pictures of my baby.. His name is.. uhm.. I'm not sure if it's Barney or Chubby.. My parents keep on calling him weird names. We adopted him. We got him from someone in Bicol for free! always cuddle him to sleep. And believe it or not, I tell this dog my problems! wahehehehe.. He's so fat.
Sssshhh! He's sleeping..
This is his favorite sleeping position hihihi
Awww... so cute!!
silent_incantations
were spoken at...5:31 PM
Hmmm... Is this true?
The University of Blogging
Presents to Eurekharllah
An Honorary Bachelor of Emo
Majoring in Non Sequiturs
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H | Helpful |
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silent_incantations
were spoken at...4:49 PM
Thursday, November 04, 2004
*Takes a deep breathe*
Phew... I thought I was gonna lose this blog! Thank God for coldplaygurl.. Thanks a LOT!!! Your my saving grace! Mann, I was really in panic 30 minutes ago. Everything was a wreck! I thought I wouldn't be able to fix this blog. I was starting to lose hope and had thoughts of abandoning this blog. But I was able to recover the picture with the help of coldplaygurl. Salamat talaga! *sigh of relief*
silent_incantations
were spoken at...2:50 PM
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
Pinatulan ko na! wakekekeke How did this test know that I love physics?!
Oh my Gawd.. I would die at such a young age?! NoOoOoOo!!! Hmm.. Blood loss eh? From lancinating I guess...
Huwat?!
Oh my Gawd! 7 children!?! I only want 2! 11 days?!
Oh I Love the answer to this one. Would you ever go back? - Nah wahehehehhe... Montreal?! Where da hell is that?!
Emo?! waaaaaaaaaa! I wanna die!
Awww... I am still damn bored. Hayyy... I'm so fucked up.
silent_incantations
were spoken at...3:25 PM
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
I went home early. Half day lang ako. I have a headache. Surprisingly enough, I'm currently suffering from disminorrhea. Ouchie...
I'm currently avoiding my mother and trying to simmer down this staggering indignation. There has never been a week that she has failed to provoke an arguement with me. Things between me and my mother has always been like this eversince I could remember. I mean, what da hell's wrong with her? Or is it me? She induces petty, bad-tempered quarrels deliberately. She blares at me with a strident voice and claims I am a boisterous youth! She makes a simple things complicated. But instead of vociferously complaining to others about my distorted life, I keep these matters to myself.
I have always been flustered by the question.. "Musta lovelife mo?". I guess it's because I never have anything to answer except "Ewan ko". Well.. if you were to ask me that question now... I'd say..
I don't have a lovelife. And I don't intend on having one now. Well.. I think I have settled things with him. (I think so.. ) It's better to part ways. (I guess...) It was better for that man that he had never knew me at all. We're just not meant to be. I have given him enough pain which I know he doesn't deserve. And now he's free. Free from me, to think he has never been mine at all. (Gulo nun ah) I can't understand our situation. We are so inlove though our eyes haven't crossed paths. It's so complicated even I couldn't explain! I am detaching myself from him so that he can find someone new. One who would love him more... La lang..
Oh mann, what did I just write up there? I promised my self not to be emo on this blog. Oh well.. minsan lang to.. pagbigyan nyo na ko.
Anyways, I am not languishing to get the sympathy of you people. I am letting this out because this is my blog, my diary, and I don't care if you think my thoughts are stupid or grotesque. You don't know me. I am not telling you to read. Say what you wanna say, criticize me, I don't fuckin' care.
silent_incantations
were spoken at...1:08 PM