Monday, August 30, 2004
Winter Never Finding Summer
I left..knowing that the torridness of the fervor I bear shall only melt the besetting ice that keeps "him" alive. The ice that gives him life. I Fathom the words he confabulate. I do. I listen well and but still,I don't have an answer... and I left with no sign of return.
"Leaving is the only way,the way I know to emancipate you from this excruciating woe that I give u each day."
For Winter and Summer can never be. *sigh*
DYSPHORIC THOUGHTS..
And so I put myself in solitary confinement. Away from others. Only myself and a four cornered room. Amidst the cold and serene ambiance...
I try to mawkishly taste yesterdays which can never be re-heated and served at the table.
Playing maudlin songs that can never be rewinded...
Seeking someone's touch that has never been felt...
Dreaming of someone that has never been seen...
Looking at someone's eyes that can only be seen through picture...
Hearing a voice that can only be heard through a song...
*Having dreams of you and me that may never come true.*
silent_incantations
were spoken at...2:03 PM
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
I'm so wretched... physically and emotionally drained. I guess these are the adversities of life. *laughs wickedly*
I'm so fatigued. My frail and feeble body can't bear anymore of the straneous steps we do everyday. gawd!! But I can't renege now. I'll just have to injure the pain. I'm sacrificing my unmarked legs for this competition. putang ina talaga pag di pa kami nanalo.
While waiting for practice to start, I mawkishly listened to some of Soleil's sentimental songs. (Soleil! if you're reading this,kasalanan mo to eh! kasi naman mga pinatugtog mo! The schmaltziness of the songs made me reminisce some memories. ahem. 'nuff sed. *sigh*
While I nostalgically listened to "those" maudlin songs, some words popped out of my mind.. and it somehow became a poem. I'll post it next time.
silent_incantations
were spoken at...9:46 PM
Sunday, August 22, 2004
Im in BIG TROUBLE. I lost my uncle's diskette containing a lot of codes and instructions I need for the project he gave me. I can't find it anywhere. damn it! Badtrip talaga! Shit naman oh! How am I gonna explain this to him? shit. I hope he'll condone me. *sigh* I'm so paranoid right now. Dunno what to do. grrrr!
My conjectures aren't always veridical, but I'm surmising that the diskette is still here, but somehow I can't find it. Tang ina naman oh
I'm dawdling the hours away with my uncle's projects. Too bad I lost the diskette. Dunno if he'll still give me projects after this incident. *sigh* I do hope I locate that diskette. damn. *sigh*
anyways..
I can't believe it,I really can't believe it.I'm still startled with what Mrs. Regno announced during english class, I got the highest score at our english periodical exam. I tied up with Nina. YahoOoOoOo!!
silent_incantations
were spoken at...1:38 AM
Saturday, August 21, 2004
Badtrip.
The evening was a real drag. I was with my cousins and well.. umm.. *whistles* nevermind.
Badtrip talaga :(
silent_incantations
were spoken at...12:43 AM
Thursday, August 19, 2004
I haven't been online for a quite a while. A LOT has happened. (tinatamad na kong isa-isahin pa)
Awww... I'm bored.
I'm in dad's office. I'm sitting at dad's BIG chair. I feel so superior. (ngak!) I'm pretending that I am the boss. wahehehe.. Maybe I'll hang out here more often. Surfing is unlimited. (YEY!)
I'm so frustrated. *sigh* I didn't do well in the periodical exams. Dunno if I'm gonna pass. *sigh* I'm so stressed out! *sigh* I need a day-off.
silent_incantations
were spoken at...6:00 PM
Saturday, August 07, 2004
I'm supposed to be studying right now for tomorrow's exam(UPCAT) . I dont mind if I fail. I'm not expecting to pass anyway.
silent_incantations
were spoken at...8:54 PM
Friday, August 06, 2004
yipeeee!, i've finally logged in to this blog. I think something's wrong with my
account. I've managed to get back the layout. The codes were mingled by "someone". ahem.
I'm getting bored of this layout. Maybe I'll change it next time.
damn that lunatic english teacher !@#$%^& We have been castigated for two staright days now.The moment she gets inside the classroom, she gets so indignant. We try to explain but she keeps her ears shut. How propestrous of her! Gawd!!, she doesn't need to be so rabid if she's not guilty of the incriminations we indict on her.. sHeEesHh!!! how pathetic!! She must have misconstrued our complains. We JUST wanted to see a CHANGE. And so..we had an open forum. Actually it wasnt exactly an open forum.. coz she was the one who spoke the whole time. She was so furious. I felt a bit scared actually. My hands felt cold and sweaty. But I still had the guts to look at her in the eyes.First, she expressed how disappointed she was and how much she felt so betrayed. (HA! Yeah right!) She said she had a solution to our "complains" . She separated the class into two. Those who listen, are at the right column and those who do not listen at the left. First she called the students which she says--"listens to her and are attentive". She called the students one by one. Oh.. and guess what..I WASNT CALLED. Fuck! What da f!@# is she implying with that solution?! It's so obvious,who her f!@#ing favorites are. F!@# her! What the f!@# is her problem?! B!@#$%!! Just because I offended her in the past doesnt mean she can do that!? damn!
Oh how i love it when she says.. "If you're gonna make a complain, make sure that Mrs. Regno will be out of OLGM the next day" hahahahaha *sarcasm* (laughs wickedly)
Some of mah kins confronted her after "that" forum to end the issue. But our sorry's were still not acquiesced. Obdurateness and rigidity swallowed her commiserating personality. I guess she was so afflicted with our complains that she feels that this is the nadir of her teaching career. Oh how I pity her.. boo-hoo. (huwat? did I just say that?!) bwahahahahah!
And oh.. to that tomfool/coo-koo adviser, who never does anything but preach like a know-it-all pyscho..how I wish I could stitch her lips so that she could shut up! Sha made things worse. We thought she would be the one to justify our complains.. but noOoOoOo.. she blabbed on us! How mother-like of her! hahahaha *sarcasm*
silent_incantations
were spoken at...3:29 PM
Thursday, August 05, 2004
oh no.
A Lot has been going through my mind right now. Napapabayaan ko na pala grades kO!
I've just realized it now.. my grades are going down. I think I'm failing. uh-oh. If I fail, my cellphone will be confiscated! boo-hoo. *grin*
I think I'm goign to fail filipino. It would be a shame if I was to fail "that subject. *grin* Oh no. I need to get my priorities straight. I'm confident I won't fail in Economics. But what about my other subject?! boo-hoo. Why now?! Why do my grades go down now that I've reached my last year in highschool?! *sigh*
We had varsity training.. hmmm 'twas boring. We just had 4-6 sets. I wasnt gonna practice because of "that" incident. (badtrip kasi ako e.) Good thing "----" called me up and appeased my wrath. *grin*
silent_incantations
were spoken at...1:40 PM
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
ahem. I'm having a good time at physics. Really I am. (did I just say that?!) Can someone slap me at the face? hehee.. Honestly, I really am enjoying physics. Coz I understand the lesson. There's this deep delecation I feel when I'm solving and calculating for magnitude and equilibriant force using component method. (am I the one talking here?) SOMEONE SLAP ME AT THE FACE!!
I wanna gain weight. My friends and family said I'm slimming down. uhmm.. I have a new addiction. Dunno wat it's called. It's a new product of Dominos. I saw my classmates eating it the other day. So I thought I'd give it try. And thanks to my curiousity, I found myself eating a scrumptious beef pie of some sort. (dunno what it's called) It sure was delicious! The savory made me salivate. The crispy crust/pie made me want it more. Oh I'm craving for it! waaahhhhh!
silent_incantations
were spoken at...4:40 PM