Tuesday, July 27, 2004
i hate wearing glasses..
silent_incantations
were spoken at...2:33 PM
Friday, July 23, 2004
I am pissed off. I didn't thought she'd do that. *grin* I'm going berserk. grrr! I just saw someone's blog. and uhm... grrr! It gets on my nerves!!! damn-
I am sick. Atleast I think I am. I still have headache yet I still went online.
damn. I'm so pissed.
silent_incantations
were spoken at...9:42 AM
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
Yesterday I lived all unawares in bliss, and knew it not. My eyes filled with the glories that were all the tomorrows which might never be. Drinking down every drop of that joy that becomes yesterday.
Heedless and unknowing I drank from a poisoned spring enraptured by the sweetest taste
(masking death's quiet promise),toasting a perilous beauty of so many nights to come.
Who poured you this libation?
Tainted, it drips from the lips of an angel (whose wings are black and broken) and tasting like tomorrows which may never be.
silent_incantations
were spoken at...10:47 PM
Monday, July 19, 2004
i am left here,wary of the night
painstaking this hurtful agony.
this life is so severed.
Both thought and memory abide
Whispering secrets to my soul
Gathering fragments to make it whole.
The sum of my experience
and the enormity of realization
peirce my cold pale flesh
still I am standing alone
lost on the seas of Eternity
with no friend but the dead
and no companion but memory
silent_incantations
were spoken at...1:13 PM
Sunday, July 18, 2004
ummmm
silent_incantations
were spoken at...10:30 PM
Thursday, July 15, 2004
fuck life...
silent_incantations
were spoken at...4:03 PM
Wednesday, July 14, 2004
I am left here,wary of the night. Flailing through this hurtful agony.
This life is so severed. *sigh* succumbing this overwhelming compulsion..I'm reaching out of the darkness in desperation for someone to pull me out of desolation.
Complicated questions take up all the empty space inside me. My mind is clouded by all these emotions making it hard for me to see. *sigh*
The salvation for which HE lust.. flares at once, then dies, crushed by the all-encompassing dark.
silent_incantations
were spoken at...3:38 PM
DAMN! those DAMN B!@#$% really get on my nerves!!! hmpft! I'll just let karma take care of the rest. hmpft!
Varsity training turned out to be a dreadful one. *sigh* I'm exhausted.
silent_incantations
were spoken at...3:28 PM
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
I ate a LOT OF CHOCNUT! (hehe)There's no varsity training today so I got home early. As always..Soleil kept on bugging me like she always do. She gets lucid over my hair! (oh my gawd!) she keeps on pulling my short hairs one by one. (ouch!) That's become her habit. I guess. But of all the people, why does she have to pull mine?! *grin*
During english class,we watched the movie "Helen of Troy" at the AVR room since that's our lesson for this week. I laid down at the floor with my bag under my head. I almost fell asleep.
After classes, I went to put things in my locker. I was shocked to see a Discman inside! (orig pa ha) It wasn't mine. What I cant figure out is how it got in there when I had the keys with me all the time. So me and nikki headed to the guidance office and reported what had happened.
silent_incantations
were spoken at...1:15 PM
Monday, July 12, 2004
I'm so pissed off! Why can't those b@#$! mind their damn business and stop medling with other people's lives?! DAMN! *raises middle finger*
I almost went berserk after reading that so-called "survey". (grrr!) Good thing Loyce was there to calm me down. Fuckin' Lamers!!! DAMN! I'm so pissed off!!!
(takes a deep breathe)
anyways....
I'm so tired. After classes, I went straight to the gym for varsity training. The training's getting harder each day. *sigh* This year's try outs are harder than the last year. My body hurts.
It was so hot. My brain doesnt function anymore, this is due to my lack of sleep. (grabe inaantok talaga ko!) I just keep on copying notes written on the board. I got bored, so when the teacher wasnt looking,I decided to text some pulpers. (hehe)
silent_incantations
were spoken at...6:56 PM
Saturday, July 10, 2004
hay. I don't like updating. It takes up my time. Maybe I'll upload some pics next time.
Crying had long been my bete noire. My eyes are still swollen. I still have headache. Insomia dropped by for 3 days. My eyebags are so big. *sigh*
CAT is hard! Today we did some exercises. Though tough, it was also kinda fun. The Chief commander's a stand-out comedian..not like what I had in mind. There's no exemptions. boo-hoo. Everbody's got to participate. Oh well..what da heck!
After CAT, me and Nadz dropped by my house to eat lunch. Then we headed to the review. It was so BORING! *grin* I pretended to listen but I really wasn't paying that much attention. My head was floating some place else. Formulas just went in and out of my brain. It was too much for my wit to handle.
silent_incantations
were spoken at...8:18 AM
Friday, July 09, 2004
It's almost midnight.. I'm still waiting for dad to get home with my cheeseburger from jollibee *laughs* yey! daddy's coming home!
Today was not a very pleasant day at school. Classes were just starting, I went to the CR and cried after reading some bitter text messages from .... *sigh* My dear soulmate was there, made me face reality. Everybody kept asking me if I was okay...obviously i wasn't.
silent_incantations
were spoken at...7:27 PM
My Dark Angel
Of Darkness and Light he may be, His mystery draws you in.
An ancient spirit is he, His passions radiate from within.
Feeling your love as it flows,He steals you away,heart,soul,mind,whole
Warlock or Wiseman, no one knows. His eyes, dark and deep stare into your soul.
My Dark Angel, He walks the Light alone, My love falls on him like spring rain. His heart, a prison of his own. My love only brings him pain.
His hair, like finest black gossamer, His eyes, how like moonlit pools of dark water, His lips, soft as rose petals, But his broken heart , surrounded by thorny nettles.
I try to show him the way but it seems to be too hard.
We are together, Maybe...
His silence stabs my heart like a crystal shard.
I show him love but he can not see.
I await him as I sit under the stars, My lonely heart consumes me,
Emptiness holds fast my heart, It is hope of love it bars,
Alone, fated angels, lovers are we..
Apart, Eternally shall we be.
silent_incantations
were spoken at...6:16 PM
(i was supposed to post this yesterday-july 8,) but i got disconnected.damn connection.)
I just got home from school, went online immediately. Talked with the same pulpers at ym and some friends at irc. *sigh* I'm stressed out.
*sigh* i know something about **** (hahahaha) taena! can't believe it!! tsk tsk
I've got BLUETOOTH! yehey! But It's not mine. I just borrowed it for the mean time. Now I can transfer some pics from my 3650 to the computer. yey!
im so hungry.. I didn't eat lunch. It was another boring day at school. We continued our open forum during Values Ed class. As usual, it was DRAMATIC. *sniff* *sniff*
I can't open my other blogs. I forgot the passwords. hu hu hu
Art class - we didn't do anything much. We just drew a LOT of circles. And I mean a LOT of circles. Who would have thought that just drawing circles would be a complicated task. *stressed out*
Computer class - damn. i used to be no.1 on all our computer activities during 3rd year. Now, I can't cope up with the lesson. (grrrrrrr!) I feel so stupid .
I really cant understand the lessons anymore. I'm so lazy when it comes to studying. And my classmates keep on bugging me. *grin* They keep borrowing my pen case then hiding it. (grrr!) I got a grade of 70 at our filipino group report.. all thanks to a b!@#$ named ------- . I'll get back at you someday.I'll steal your lip gloss and flush it down the toilet and plaque your eyebrows 'til there's no more left! *wicked laugh*
The weather is so unpredictable. It was so hot just a minute ago. Now it seems like it's gonna rain. Everybody at class wanted to sit at the last row,(where I sit) to feel cool coz' of the wall fan.
OH it started to rain!!! (yehey!)
silent_incantations
were spoken at...5:13 PM
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
My soulmate's in trouble. And as usual,I'm always there to catch her. We didn't eat at lunch. We had a so-called "bonding" like we always do. We talked about pretty much the same topic-- "LOVELIFE NAMEN" hahahaha (amp!)*sniff* *sniff*
*sigh* I wanna get drunk. (argh!) My body needs beer, like it needs chocnut. *laughs* I cant leave without it. Oh and I don't wanna smoke anymore *claps for myself* I'll try. Nowadays, I only smoke when I'm in a badtrip. Although I know it's not good for me. We have a history of asthma in the family. I'm lucky I didn't inherit asthma *nods*. But I really want to stop smoking. Honestly.
My body HURTS!!!Every joint and muscle. *huhuhu* I tried out once again for the volleyball varsity of our school. And guess what, I PASSED! yipee! but it's not yet final. There's still a final screening for the ones who really deserves to be in the team. Although I'm not really expecting to be chosen, I just wanna try if I can pass like I did last year. *sniff* *sniff*
silent_incantations
were spoken at...6:16 PM
its been such a LOOOONNNGGG time since i last posted. damn. I was so busy with my other blogs, i forgot about this one. oh well.. I have 5 blogs in total, including this one. I've deleted the other two.
There's so many things that happened. I dunno where to start. hmmm...
*sigh* it was another boring day at school.. as usual, Mr. Nimitz(economics teacher) still gave out points to those(i wasn't included) who answered on his so-called "daily graded recitation". DAMN! I cant keep focus these days. =( *grin* I try to be as productive as I can, but still, i can't think of anything else but my never ending problems. *sigh*
And oh! the tempura was good! tsalap tsalap! yummy! I have been eating tempura almost everyday now since classes started (i think). Di parin ako nagsasawa (hek hek).
Yesterday was Joey's birthday! He gave us (me,nikki,nadz,soleil) 200 bucks. We split the money and gave each of ourselves 50 bucks. yey! And I bought a LOT OF CHOCNUT! *laughs* yum yum!
Our Values Ed class is so fun! especially with Mrs. Jocson around. But for today's class,we had an open forum among the class. Some released their grievances and aired their hatred with one another. Some of us even cried. Even Mrs.Jocson cried (aww). And some dickheads didn't mind at all and just talked about ragnarok. (sheesshh)It was really dramatic. I can't explain how it happend. No one was really expecting that it was gonna turn out that way. But by the time Values Ed was over, things turned out pretty much okay. Everybody was laughing after. *sniff* *sniff*
silent_incantations
were spoken at...5:22 PM